- in and out of mental hospitals
- started school (which I absolutely adore)
- makin' mix tapes
- drinkin' bottom shelf whisky

that's about it!

life is ridiculous and no one gives me time to explain myself.
i'll be dead before new years, mark my words.
this is my last entry. bye.

the worst part of waking up early is that it's a waiting game for the rest of the world to wake up. i wish i could sleep better. i'm going home today to help my mother with christmas stuffs. i start school in approximately one month. woooo.

day #3 i've started by drinking, go!

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In toxicology, the median lethal dose, LD50 (abbreviation for “Lethal Dose, 50%”), or LCt50 (Lethal Concentration & Time) of a toxic substance or radiation is the dose required to kill half the members of a tested population. LD50 figures are frequently used as a general indicator of a substance's acute toxicity. The test was created by J.W. Trevan in 1927.[1] It is being phased out in some jurisdictions in favor of tests such as the Fixed Dose Procedure,[2] however the concept, and calculation of the median lethal dose for comparison purposes, continues in wide use. As a measure of toxicity, LD50 is somewhat unreliable and results may vary greatly between testing facilities due to factors such as the genetic characteristics of the sample population, environmental factors and mode of administration.[3]

nevermind

AMBIEN + STEEL RESERVE + ME = BRIAN + AMBIEN + WEED = FUN DAY OF FUN

i lied. it's not getting any easier.